It Is Not A Dejavu

Assalamualaikum and good day, dear readers.. dah lame dh x bukak blog nieh bcoz of killing exams and homework and so on.. hari ni my post gonna be a kind of story .. well, shine the lights on me and the story begins!!

      Baru2 nieh.. (I prefer present tense) Mid-Exam is still hot and fresh from the oven .. kitorang bru jer melepaskan diri daripada peperiksaan yang semakin lama semakin 'membunuh' kitorang sume.. pastu.. biase la.. budak2 lepas exam.. ofcoz lha nk result.. kan3? I'm just hoping for the best but don't prepare enough for the worst.. so, cikgu2 pom bagi la markah2 kitorang bgi subjek masing2.. ade cikgu yg sememangnya berbangga dengan result kitorang.. namun ada juga yg kurang berpuas hati ngan result kitorg.. apakan daya.. kitorang dh study.. yang mane x tue.. lantak engko la.. so.. I am quite satisfied with my result.. I've got quite a good result and Alhamdulillah.. but to everyone's shock.. another new challenger is coming.. and my heart's beating fast now..

    That new challenger is someone whom I never heard he got almost straight A's.. I'm not humiliating or looking down on his capabilities or whatsoever.. but he's still in one of the Future Straight A's List and yet his name really comes alive in that list now.. Now, there're only 2 students who probably manage to get straight A's.. he and me.. but .. the thing isn't about how he suddenly got maybe straight A's.. he was someone in my old and fading  love story.. when people ask ' who got almost straight A's..??' then everyone answers.. "!@#$% and Hanim" ... each time I hear them say my name together with his name.. it is such a heartbreaking moment.. my bestfriend told me , there are some girls talking behind my back and say that I am perfect with him to be a couple.. but they say that it is such a great loss I clash with him'.. they don't know the true story, and they will never know..

    I admit he's really hot in my school and sometimes I really did miss him . . I heard he's got another crush and that even more adding the pain in my broken heart.. I don't know how to forget him.. pretend I never was his girlfriend.. was so damn absurd.. I fake a smile just to hide my tears.. but yet he seems to live a very happy life now.. without me .. by his side..

so to him, I've got something to say.. before I go..

    aku taw yang aku dah banyak sakitkan hati kau.. dan aku rasa sampai bila-bila pun kau x akan baca post aku nieh.. tp aku harap.. kau bahagia dengan sape2 yang jadi teman hidup kau nanti....aku terlalu naif untuk mencintai seseorang sekarang.. so, aku harap.. teman hidup kau nanti akan jaga kau elok2.. jangan jadi macam aku.. aku x taw cmne nk b'ckp ngan kau dlm kelas.. lidah aku dah kelu nak luahkan ape yang aku rasa selama ni.. tp kalau kau baca,, apa aku tulis ni memang ikhlas daripada hati aku.. kata2 yg aku cuba ucapkan ktkau.. dan mungkin bila kau baca nanti.. aku dah pergi buat selama-selamanya drpd hidup kau.. aku nak ucapkan good luck kt kau.. hope for 9A's..

that's all I want to say...